I feel old...

...Despite the fact that I'm really not that old since I'm in my early 20's still. I just think it's crazy that I'm celebrating another birthday in my 20's when it still feels like I should be in the 6th grade still and turning 10 years younger than I am today. I don't know where the last 10 years have gone to besides school. I haven't even done anything remotely cool either besides move from New York to Washington and visit Spain for three weeks, if you can consider that cool.

Is it sad that I haven't had a birthday party with friends since my 9th birthday? I've only celebrated with family for the last 10+ years and the "parties" weren't much of parties. Just a couple of presents, cake, possibly ice cream, and maybe a dinner of my choice. What a way to spend your birthdays from 10 until the present. I even considered having a get together the Saturday after to celebrate but as it got closer to June, it turned out that the Relief Society Enrichment activity was that day and turned out to be the day of the bridal shower of someone from the branch and I had been hopeful to invite people from church but didn't want to take away people from one of the other two activities since they already kind of overlapped in time. Having the get together the weekend before didn't really make sense to me unless it was to be a get together combining my birthday with a friend's since we're less than a week apart in age with him being the older one.

Anyways! On a happier note, I was listening to a CD that I haven't heard in a while from Poets of the Fall and rediscovered the songs "Fire" and All the Way/4 U off of the Carnival of Rust album. I absolutely adore these songs. Especially the latter. Poets of the Fall have such beautiful music that I could spend the rest of my life listening to.

I have Pandora on Vladimir and I was listening to one of my channels one day and one of the songs that came up was by Jim Brickman that I really liked. I ended up getting everything I could find by him and one of the albums I got was call Disney Songbook. While listening to it, I encountered the song called "Beautiful". A girl like me can only dream of finding a guy who would do something like sing this amazing song to her -- It's one of those songs that stick with you because it's a, well, beautiful song.