I'm gonna be positive, even if it kills me!

Earlier this week, I decided I needed more positiveness in my life, so I decided that I would find at least one good thing about my day and write it down in a notebook. At the end of the day, I've found at least three things every day since Tuesday that have been good, had a positive impact on my day, or just simply made me happy. Tonight, I felt like sharing the list from today.

1. Vitamins
I've had vitamins sitting on the top of my bookshelf for a while now and over the last week, I've been taking them every single day. My energy has been way up because of it and I've felt better than I have physically in quite a while (eating out less has probably been helping with this too). And I think it's been helping me be at least tired at a decent hour for when I really should be in bed the night before work.

2. Having anti itch cream on hand
I got swimmers' itch last summer from one of the local lakes, so I bought a bottle of anti itch cream to help. So glad I bought a bottle bigger than I needed last summer. This last Thursday night, some of us did a movie night outside at our church. In the grass. Which I laid down in the whole movie. Now I have bug bites up and down my arms that are driving me crazy. And even though I wore jeans, they somehow got my legs, too, with a couple of bites. Mean things.

3, Being OK with being alone
A few years ago, being single would have driven me crazy for reasons I'm not gonna go over here. And it did bug me quite a bit as a teen and for part of my early 20's. Now that I'm single again after nearly 3 years of being in a serious relationship, I've realized that I'm alright being by myself. I don't need a man to do stuff with me. I can go by myself and do things. If I really need someone to come with, I can always grab a girlfriend and take them along for the ride. Don't get me wrong, having someone to be with romantically is nice but there are times being along is just as nice. I've noticed, though, that I am finally to the point where I can flirt with a guy if I chose to and not feel guilty about it anymore. The important thing is I'm happy, working on things that need to be worked on, and I know things will work out for me in the end the way they are meant to work out. And honestly, I'm excited about the future and what it holds. I have lots of wonderful people in my life who constantly show me that there are always adventures are to be had, no matter where you are in life, and there is always, always, always love to be given.

If you could, would you?

Jack and I had gone to an activity the other night and while driving home, we got into a discussion about whether or not we would redo the last 5 years that we've known each other. Or even go as far back as redoing high school. I've been thinking about it more and more since Monday night when we talked about it and I've come to the conclusion that there is no way I would redo any of it. As nice as it would be to do it all over knowing what I do now, I wouldn't be who I am now if everything bad that has happened was erased. It's taken some time but I've learned to accept the bad that has happened and be alright with how it has changed me in the intervening years since the event.

One thing I've noticed is that I don't have patience any more for... Well, let's call it immaturity. I just can't do it anymore. I feel like I'm wasting my time with people when they're choosing to act like that; I have better things to do with my time. Maybe I'm just turning into an old lady at the young age of nearly 25. Or maybe I'm just being an adult.